Holyshit! I turn out a 20-years-old BIG BOY!
20 years’ gone, the kid finally grew up and faded away, what left is a mature da man who knows his responsibility towards his family, his homiez and the society.
He really feel guilty for the wrong things he ever done, and sorry for the faults and mistakes he ever made. Right now he decides to do the right thing. But what confuses him is the future, he asks himself what is he gonna do and what is he willing to do plus what is he able to do in the future.
The older he grows up, the more he recognize himself. Does he really look as smart and aggressive as others talk about? Nope, definitely, he realized he is nothing at all. All he tryna do right now is not to disappoint himself any more.